FUCK FUCK MOTHERCUNTING COCK-KNOCKING FUCKING ASSHOLING TWATMONGERING FUCKING HOLEMUNCHING FUCKHEADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am so fucking over this job search. Three and a half motherfucking years of looking for a job.....the ONE TIME I'm offered one - shit, this job was handed to me with minimal effort on my part - that paid more than I even asked for and I TURNED IT DOWN for reasons I cannot even begin to fathom at this point. G didn't help either - he jumped right in and helped talk me out of it. WTF????? CHRIST ALMIGHT! And now, two years later, I can't get an offer to save my fucking life.
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU FUCKING WANT FROM ME?!?!?!?! (directed at the Universe)
WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF SHIT IS THIS??? IS THIS SOME KIND OF KARMIC BACKLASH????
Sweet bleedin Jesus, what the fuck is going on here???? And I swear to God, if ONE PERSON says to me "It's just not your time yet" "God has a plan" I'm going to tweak out and fuck them up with a verbal lashing the likes of which makes this blog post look like a kindergarten class holiday pageant show.
What about MY plans???? What about MY needs??? I'm DYING in this house. I'm atrophying, getting fat and oh by the way I'm BROKE. Yeah.....and any day now I'll get the paper that tells me I am no longer married so then there goes my health insurance, too. So I'll be a single, unemployed mother. Yay fucking me.
Am I lucky to have Dave? Of course. But he shouldn't have to support me. I WANT/NEED a job!
Am I fortunate my ex lets me live here (for now) and he's not a raging asshole? Yes and I'm grateful. But he doesn't want me here forever and I don't want to be here forever.
I can't get a job doing what I'm qualified to do, what I've spent the last 20 years doing so now what???? A minimum wage shit hours retail job??? Yep....what fucking choice do I have? My hours will be fucked, my pay will be miniscule and there won't be any benefits and that's IF they hire me. With my fucking shit luck, they won't want me because I don't have any recent retail experience. Motherfuckers.
FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
